Twice Unwanted

You said, sometimes people have to fall apart

to fall back together.

You said this was a matter of the heart.

I say, an ex-lover just spun me a great line

so he can break my heart for the second time!

I thought it was a night of passion for two souls meant to be,

I see now that it was just curiosity and you wanting to see,

Did you still do it for me and do I still do it for you?

You wrote me songs and told me stories,

so you could seek out some kind of glory,

But the earth never moved, the stars didn't suddenly align

We are not two star-crossed lovers able to turn back time.

I spend hours crying trying to find the meaning, 

watching the clock and my phone and staring at the ceiling,

I am back to that little girl you hurt all those years ago, broken and lost,

I can still taste my tears from the first time you made me feel worthless and tossed.

You never made me feel special, yet I hung on your every word

I showered you with affection, and the drugs kept the rest blurred.

You've done it again, and I allowed it once more,

this now big girl is nothing but an unwanted whore.