A Plee for Help


 
Can I ask for strength?
Could I be so wrong as to take it to that length?

Haven't prayed in years, even through some of my deepest fears,
didn't want to believe because I felt so deceived.


You took so much away from me,
its taken my whole life to clearly see,
things happen for a reason-
for you to grow and learn.
I know I haven't been faithful but for You're help I yearn.

I've kept up such a front, they all think I'm strong,
but I'm crying inside and it's time to face my wrong.

Please let me face my demons so I can shed my past.
So I can please free my addiction at last. 
    

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